First Anatomy Exam on Friday…😅

This test done came up ’bout fast as hell.

How is it already test week??

Smh. It’s all good though, I’m not freaked out or anything. As a matter of fact, I’m not even that anxious about it (yet). Yeah I’ve only had two weeks of class, but I’ve learned a lot more about the human body in these past two weeks than I have in my last 21 years of life. It has all been some really interesting stuff.

It has been a hell of a lot of stuff too.

All I really do is study nowadays, I don’t have much of a life outside of Anatomy. Hell, my life IS Anatomy. I go to sleep thinking about the different branches of the arteries of the human body and wake up with pectoral muscles on my mind. It’s freakin’ insane. Ask me what I did this past Labor Day weekend. That’s right, I studied my ass off ALL WEEKEND LONG. I did get to go to a cool lil’ cookout on Sunday for a study break with some of my med school buddies, but other than that I’ve been free-falling into the glory of the human body. I’ve come to the point where I get excited not to have class…just so I can study some more.

It’s sad man.

But I’m also in country-ass Winston-Salem. If I’m not studying, what the hell else am I gonna do?

It’s probably a great thing I’m in medical school here. There isn’t much to distract me from my studies and the people I interact with 95% of the time are all in the same position I’m in, or somewhere in the realm of medicine. I’m also honestly just glad to have made it into medical school, so no complaints here.

But this test on Friday though…

I want to say I’m prepared, but I’d be lying. I can honestly say I’ve been giving it my all in terms of studying and reviewing material. It’s just that it’s really an insane amount of stuff to know, and to have it all crammed in three weeks is incredible. You know the saying that goes “Medical school is like drinking water out of a fire hydrant”? Well yeah. It’s true. As a matter of fact, our professors are having us learn new material up until two days before the test. I mean, come on man. You giving us new things to learn, digest and review two days before the test? TWO DAYS? I’m still trying to figure out how the nervous system works, which is something we were taught like a week ago! Not to mention that I learned that this test is supposed to have a written portion that has between 100-140 questions and a 70-question practical portion where I have to identify different body parts on cadavers.

Jesus. 

But like I said, I’m not stressed. Annoyed, but not stressed. I know I’ll pass, because I refuse to fail. Simple as that. It’s just a matter of how well I do on this test. With confidence, you’ve won before you’ve even started and without it, you’ve already lost before beginning. At least, that’s what I like to tell myself…

Pray for me y’all.

– Black Man, M.D.

P.S. I get to hear Dr. Damon Tweedy speak right after the test, which gives me something to look forward to. This man is a doctor AND a lawyer. Shoutout to the Black Doctors in White Coats!

So Far, So Good…

Well it’s been about a week into Anatomy and I’m not wailing to God for mercy or anything…so I guess I’m doing alright so far. Don’t get me wrong though, the amount of info that we’ve been force-fed has been pretty intense. Just this past week alone, I’ve had nine lectures, two 4-hour learning sessions, a learning lab where we learned to read cell cultures and two 3-hour anatomy labs where we actually started dissecting cadavers. Like, bishhh what? Not to mention that for every lecture we have, it takes me AT LEAST an hour and a half to get through it. So I’ve been pretty much studying all day everyday. I can literally name almost all of the muscles we all have in our backs, tell you where they are, and how they work. I can also tell you what our spinal cord is made up of, how our nerves generally work, and the steps that an embryo takes to develop. Shit’s crazy. I just took a couple study breaks for my birthday yesterday (Yay me.), and one today to check out the VMAs. I ended up watching Miley host the show pretty much naked, Nicki Minaj cuss out Miley Cyrus on national TV, and Kanye give a TED Talk only to end it with his 2020 presidential bid. This is why I don’t watch TV. I will admit that I had a blast watching Kanye go on one of his thoughtful, unorganized rants. (HAHAHAHA.)

But yeah, it has been an intense week. But I’m feeling alright, and not too stressed out at all. I wish I could say the same for some of my classmates, but we all have our own ways with dealing with challenges, right? I just pray to God I stay this calm about the rest of this Anatomy block and these next four years…I just don’t see the point of panicking and worrying that you won’t be prepared for the tests you’re gonna have to take whether you’re ready or not. If you make it to medical school, then you’re more than capable of doing just fine there. We were all picked for a reason, so why not show the admissions team that you deserve to be there? Its all about your mentality and your perspective…if you truly want to excel, you’ll excel. You’ll do whatever you feel is necessary to attain your goals and you’ll make it. I can’t tell you how or when, but if your desire is strong enough, you’ll make it, TRUST ME. That goes for anything you want to achieve in life, not just passing a medical school test or even just getting into medical school. On the other hand, if all you can think about is how unprepared you’ll be for the test or how much you don’t deserve to get into a medical school of your choice or how much your day is going to suck, you’ll have a pretty shitty time. You are what you think, your thoughts are your energy, whether they be positive or negative. Your thoughts determine your attitudes, which in turn catalyze your actions.

It’s really that simple.

Or maybe I’m delusional.

Whatever.

That’s just how I think and what I believe. It’s been working for me, and I hope someone out there can take this and find peace with themselves and their environment around them. And after finding that harmonizing peace, I hope that person finds a way to fulfill his or her desires. The universe has a way of making things for work for those who really desire to have something happen. Call me crazy, but I’m going to be busy fulfilling my desires and I REFUSE to let any damn tests stand in my way. ( That was also a diss to that hellhole that was the MCAT t(-_-t)    )

–  Black Man, M.D.