Back At It.

Well.

I’m back in Winston-Salem.

School starts back up tomorrow with three morning lectures and an afternoon discussion session, which isn’t too bad. As a matter of fact, this week isn’t looking bad at all, its mainly just morning microbiology lectures and free afternoons that we can use to digest the new material given to us. However, next week is a packed week with both morning and afternoon classes. It’s all good though, I’m ready for just about anything. Although I’ve been resting and relaxing for the past couple of weeks, I’ve also been mentally preparing myself for this semester…and I’m happy to say that with a semester of medical school under my belt, I have no fears coming into this next semester. You see, I’ve come to realize that it’s pointless to be afraid or nervous of what lies ahead in medical school. Whether it be future exams or being thrown in a brand new environment with minimal skills, there’s really no point in worrying about the potential hardships the future might bring. That’s because it’s only gonna get harder later on in my career, and I’ll just be looking back at my first year wondering what the hell I was so anxious about when I had it so easy. Also, there simply is nothing I can do about the future except prepare for it. Worrying is such a waste of energy. So I might as well enjoy the ride and actively learn as much from it as I can. I have Dr. Damon Tweedy to thank for helping me reach that conclusion, for I was reading his book this past week (Yeah I know, I’m taking forever to get through it) and as I was reading through his experiences in his first year of residency, I started to fully realize that I really do have it easy in comparison. I mean, all I really have to do is study for exams and absorb as much material as I can throughout these four years of medical school. Third and fourth years are clinical years and I will have more responsibilities as a result, but I still don’t have the full responsibilities an actual doctor has. Plus, I’ll be closely supervised anyway. Sure I’ll have screw-ups along the way, but when was the last time I was scared of screwing up? Failures are stepping stones to success. Kanye said it himself, “N-Now th-that that don’t kill me, can only make me stronger.” Residency will be by far more challenging than what I’m currently experiencing now, but by the time I get there, I’ll have the skillset needed to be a full medical doctor. Sure it’ll be probably one of the hardest adjustments I’ll ever have to make and I probably won’t feel ready to make decisions for the well-being of my patients, but I’ll survive and get through it. As Marcus Aurelius once said, “Never let the future disturb you. You will meet it, if you have to, with the same weapons of reason which today arm you against the present. ” That goes for anything that you may be going through in life; just trust yourself and you’ll find a way to get through your struggles.

In other news, this past week in Atlanta was an awesome experience! It was such a diverse city man; I saw all kinds of people when I was down there. While I was there, I got to see all kinds of aquatic wildlife in the Georgia Aquarium, which by the way was so freakin’ huge. I’ve never seen an aquarium that big…and that expensive 😒. It was worth it though, my girl and I got our money’s worth and toured just about everything in that place. I also rode the new (and random) Ferris Wheel in the Centennial Olympic Park, shopped in Lenox Mall, drove through Buckhead and dabbed with the Coke Bear at the World of Coke. I also can’t forget about the great food I had at Atlanta’s restaurants and all the fun I had on New Years Day. Great times, great times. Definitely gotta make another trip back at some point in the future.

I hope each of you are starting your New Year right and on a positive note! Don’t let the one life you have be infested with negativity and worry; let it shine radiant with happiness and confidence! Sounds corny, but life’s better when you’re happy and aren’t chronically worried, trust me.

Stay blessed!

– Black Man, M.D.

First Anatomy Exam on Friday…😅

This test done came up ’bout fast as hell.

How is it already test week??

Smh. It’s all good though, I’m not freaked out or anything. As a matter of fact, I’m not even that anxious about it (yet). Yeah I’ve only had two weeks of class, but I’ve learned a lot more about the human body in these past two weeks than I have in my last 21 years of life. It has all been some really interesting stuff.

It has been a hell of a lot of stuff too.

All I really do is study nowadays, I don’t have much of a life outside of Anatomy. Hell, my life IS Anatomy. I go to sleep thinking about the different branches of the arteries of the human body and wake up with pectoral muscles on my mind. It’s freakin’ insane. Ask me what I did this past Labor Day weekend. That’s right, I studied my ass off ALL WEEKEND LONG. I did get to go to a cool lil’ cookout on Sunday for a study break with some of my med school buddies, but other than that I’ve been free-falling into the glory of the human body. I’ve come to the point where I get excited not to have class…just so I can study some more.

It’s sad man.

But I’m also in country-ass Winston-Salem. If I’m not studying, what the hell else am I gonna do?

It’s probably a great thing I’m in medical school here. There isn’t much to distract me from my studies and the people I interact with 95% of the time are all in the same position I’m in, or somewhere in the realm of medicine. I’m also honestly just glad to have made it into medical school, so no complaints here.

But this test on Friday though…

I want to say I’m prepared, but I’d be lying. I can honestly say I’ve been giving it my all in terms of studying and reviewing material. It’s just that it’s really an insane amount of stuff to know, and to have it all crammed in three weeks is incredible. You know the saying that goes “Medical school is like drinking water out of a fire hydrant”? Well yeah. It’s true. As a matter of fact, our professors are having us learn new material up until two days before the test. I mean, come on man. You giving us new things to learn, digest and review two days before the test? TWO DAYS? I’m still trying to figure out how the nervous system works, which is something we were taught like a week ago! Not to mention that I learned that this test is supposed to have a written portion that has between 100-140 questions and a 70-question practical portion where I have to identify different body parts on cadavers.

Jesus. 

But like I said, I’m not stressed. Annoyed, but not stressed. I know I’ll pass, because I refuse to fail. Simple as that. It’s just a matter of how well I do on this test. With confidence, you’ve won before you’ve even started and without it, you’ve already lost before beginning. At least, that’s what I like to tell myself…

Pray for me y’all.

– Black Man, M.D.

P.S. I get to hear Dr. Damon Tweedy speak right after the test, which gives me something to look forward to. This man is a doctor AND a lawyer. Shoutout to the Black Doctors in White Coats!

Anatomy Starts Tomorrow…HERE WE GO!!!

So I was actually gonna scrap this whole blog thing…I’m just not used to doing anything like this and it was kind of weird. But I’ve always been about stepping outside of my comfort zone and getting comfortable being uncomfortable, especially since I’m gonna have to learn how to get comfortable with the insanity of medical school…so here I am. I guess I’ll just use this as a way to clear my head and to reflect on my experiences. Who knows, maybe someone will actually take a thing or two from my experiences and use them to better their own life in some way…

But the fact that I finally get to start Anatomy tomorrow…it’s pretty wild. I technically started school three weeks ago, but here at Wake they had us go through this three-week transition program called LAUNCH. It stands for:

(Learning strategies, Acclimation to medical school & medical profession, Understanding oneself & others, New ideas, words & concepts, Careers in medicine, Healthy living).

I thought that it was a pretty cool concept and I got to learn a hell of a lot from not only my new classmates, but from faculty that came to talk to us about their careers and how to stay healthy throughout medical school while getting adjusted to my new home in country-ass Winston-Salem. It sure as hell ain’t no Miami…but it’s all good, I’m getting used to it. The beach may be four hours away, but its only an hour or so drive to the good ol’ mountains. You probably won’t see my ass out there though. My class is also more diverse than I thought it was going to be, which is always a good thing. I’ve also already had two patient interactions since I got my white coat! I don’t know a damn thing though so I was just in there smiling and nodding and asking real vague questions, but it was still cool to talk with patients and all. LAUNCH was a pretty cool experience and although some of my classmates may think otherwise, I feel like we’ll appreciate what we learned as time goes on.

LAUNCH also gave me time to mentally prepare for anatomy and the craziness of medical school that I’ve been hearing so much about. Mannn as a matter of fact, people have been talking about being scared and all about it, but I’m just here like “Bring it! It ain’t nothing but some bones and meat…Like, I know my damn body!” Sure I may be a little delusional but I feel like it’s better to be confident than to be nervous and timid…because either way, anatomy ain’t going anywhere. I gotta deal with it if I’m tryna earn my M.D. Like I said in my last post, I plan on kicking some ass in anatomy and in medical school in general soooooo that’s what I’m gonna do. It’s not gonna be easy, but if it was, everyone would be a doctor right?

– Black Man, M.D.