This test done came up ’bout fast as hell.

How is it already test week??

Smh. It’s all good though, I’m not freaked out or anything. As a matter of fact, I’m not even that anxious about it (yet). Yeah I’ve only had two weeks of class, but I’ve learned a lot more about the human body in these past two weeks than I have in my last 21 years of life. It has all been some really interesting stuff.

It has been a hell of a lot of stuff too.

All I really do is study nowadays, I don’t have much of a life outside of Anatomy. Hell, my life IS Anatomy. I go to sleep thinking about the different branches of the arteries of the human body and wake up with pectoral muscles on my mind. It’s freakin’ insane. Ask me what I did this past Labor Day weekend. That’s right, I studied my ass off ALL WEEKEND LONG. I did get to go to a cool lil’ cookout on Sunday for a study break with some of my med school buddies, but other than that I’ve been free-falling into the glory of the human body. I’ve come to the point where I get excited not to have class…just so I can study some more.

It’s sad man.

But I’m also in country-ass Winston-Salem. If I’m not studying, what the hell else am I gonna do?

It’s probably a great thing I’m in medical school here. There isn’t much to distract me from my studies and the people I interact with 95% of the time are all in the same position I’m in, or somewhere in the realm of medicine. I’m also honestly just glad to have made it into medical school, so no complaints here.

But this test on Friday though…

I want to say I’m prepared, but I’d be lying. I can honestly say I’ve been giving it my all in terms of studying and reviewing material. It’s just that it’s really an insane amount of stuff to know, and to have it all crammed in three weeks is incredible. You know the saying that goes “Medical school is like drinking water out of a fire hydrant”? Well yeah. It’s true. As a matter of fact, our professors are having us learn new material up until two days before the test. I mean, come on man. You giving us new things to learn, digest and review two days before the test? TWO DAYS? I’m still trying to figure out how the nervous system works, which is something we were taught like a week ago! Not to mention that I learned that this test is supposed to have a written portion that has between 100-140 questions and a 70-question practical portion where I have to identify different body parts on cadavers.

Jesus. 

But like I said, I’m not stressed. Annoyed, but not stressed. I know I’ll pass, because I refuse to fail. Simple as that. It’s just a matter of how well I do on this test. With confidence, you’ve won before you’ve even started and without it, you’ve already lost before beginning. At least, that’s what I like to tell myself…

Pray for me y’all.

– Black Man, M.D.

P.S. I get to hear Dr. Damon Tweedy speak right after the test, which gives me something to look forward to. This man is a doctor AND a lawyer. Shoutout to the Black Doctors in White Coats!